sick and tired

of working for nothing, although it's within my role as a "filial" son.
of watching bubbles of promise pop in my face.
of meeting project deadlines by sacrificing precious sleep and freedom.
of the crippling effects of procastination and delegation.
of watching time and money flow through my grasp like fine sand.
of using the school's internet connection for everything but schoolwork.
of postponing or cancelling plans for last minute cockups.
of having so many ideas to blog about, but eventually forgetting to.
of compromising and forsaking my dreams for others.
of burying pride and passion with priorities and obligations.
of building castles in the clouds, only to watch it all fall down as rain.
of drinking from golden fountains in the company of loneliness.
of chasing white dragons in a trip out of reality.
of feeling sick and tired.