the green little imp

i woke up feeling like shit. to be precise, i woke up at 5.45am after a 12-hour slumber with an aching head feeling like a fucked up piece of shit. after washing up, i went downstairs seeking music therapy. i started off submerging myself in the audio-rich pleasure of cradle of filth, then mellowed down with golden oldies from frank sinatra, the platters, carpenters, etc.

half-way through reminiscing, i got to thinking about my life up to this point. feeling like a piece of shit this early in the morning didn't exactly invoke positive, sunshine thoughts about myself. staring into a reflection of myself on the crystal case of 'robbie williams - greatest hits', i was victimized by a bout of depression, until suddenly, a peculiar concept barged into my mind, like a green little imp holding a jar of colourful lollipops, smiling and dancing as he sang a happy jingle. the little imp spoke of justification for my state of mind, and asserted that being the fucked up piece of shit that i am had its advantages. at least expectations would be lowered, stress would be relieved, tensions would be eased, and liberation would be achieved. i could now do things that i previously would have shaken my head at.

with the imp as my companion, i took the bus to school, and on it we saw a gorgeous girl. usually i would have bashfully taken discrete glances at eye-candy like her, but today, i was a piece of shit, and i didn't have to care about deportment or self-image, or if i was to give her the defamatory impression of myself as a perverted goggling arsehole. the wonderful green fella drooling by my side also discarded my anxiety over the presentation i was going to school for, by distinctively pointing out that there was nothing wrong with being a piece of shit.

from feeling like a fucked up piece of shit to being that fucked up piece of shit, i find myself venturing through life's ups and downs with a whole new attitude, and i'm glad i found my new best friend, the green little imp with colourful lollipops, who showed me how perfect the world could really be from this perspective. =)